I have to say, life itself is full of fun, and suppose to be joyful. Yet, as soon as it reaches a certain point where you got to make a decision, life becomes so headache!

Six years ago, I was suffering whether immigrate or not. On one side of the balance were my parents and all of my achievements in China, on the other side is an unexplored world full of risk. Arguing with myself, back and forth, I filed my application.

Fours years back, facing three offers from three universities in Canada and US, I could hardly make a choice. Which one to pick? I even could not set up my criteria, by ranking, tuition, post-graduation potential or location? Anyway, I ended up in Kingston, a nice quite little college town in Ontario.

Last week, got calls from two job agents, one lead is a marketing director for APAC, the other is a business analyst in another company. Making the situation more complicated, my boss just mentioned to me that he might send me to our APAC HQ, in Japan, Singapore or other place. Holy cow! All the sudden I got to evaluate all of those. Gee, decision, decision…Believe me Man, that is way harder than to say! Life might be boring whithout challenges, however it becomes confusing when there are choices...

I sort of like Canada now, the bloody cold, long, dark, snowy winter; hot, colourful, lazy summer; the money sucking taxes; the cheaper houses; public healthcare (although it may kill you by putting you on the waiting list), shy and quiet people and neighborhood, and etc. After all, I just enjoy it a lot. Should I give up all these to trade off a new, unknown career somewhere in APAC?

“Why not!” another me said in my mind. “over there you gonna leverage your background, language and many other values achieved in the past years! You will be more valuable over there rather than using your Chin-glish fighting for acknowledgement in Canada, and man, you know it!”, that me keeps saying, “and, remember, that is the place where your parents still live, anyway they will prefer staying there rather than moving to Canada. You know when they really getting old, your annual visiting will be ain’t enough! ”

Gosh, it is so hard! I step out of the office, drive home. While enjoy the green woods and flowers along the road, I turn on the radio.

“CBC news Washington DC reports, former Chinese diplomat XXX in Australia has DECIDED to come to DC…”

“Ontario Hydro Power just announced another power shortage alert today…their DECISION on increasing hydro price…”

 “Bank Canada might increase the interest rate in September, specialist says this DECISION is going to hit real estate market…”

“CNN news reports a strong typhoon has caused million dollars damage in southeast China…Beijing DECIDED new budget for impacted areas… ”

“NHL players' association DECIDED to reopen the negotiation with the league…”

Man, why the hell there are so many DECISIONS have to be made???

 “According to the report of STATSCAN, BC had the fasted economic growth rate in Q1, 4.1%, while the national average is 1.4%. The Finance minister of BC said this increase is most attributable to the trading business between BC and Asia Pacific…”

 “MP XXX in Ottawa said that because of the bad human right record, and the lack of the transparency, Canada should not sell its enterprise to any State Owned Chinese companies…”

Hah, that is ironic, ehj? I do not think that MP knows what he is doing, pathetic!

Well, now back to my problem, finally, what DECISION should I make???